Happy days are here again

So today/night was three things. A) The last mandatory class that I EVER have to take with Rosemary Rubino, B) one of the most stressful days I've had in a while, and C) the 2nd anniversary of my beloved Rio. So after doing my presentation, taking my test, and turning in the service learning project I completely bullshited in 24 hours, my darling roommate and i met our other darling roommate and a bunch of her friends at my Rio for drinks, food, and fun. I convinced L to come, even though he was scared it was going to be weird, since he left on less than amicable terms. But he came, and looked hot, and we flirted. It was good. the margs were good, the guac was good, the company was good. I wish I had stayed. But if I had, how would the girls have gotten home? One has classes tomorrow still and the other was exhausted. It would have been very selfish to stay there when they are both exhausted. So we came home. The selfish part of me, which is at the moment soaked in tequila, is screaming at me that I should have stayed. But this is good that I am home and in bed before 12. Especially since I have to get up tomorrow morning and be charming at work so I make good tips. Then I work Sat. night, and then Mon. night and then I'm off until I get back from Lubbock. Which is when L and I will FINALLY hang out! He said something about a party or something, but I dunno. We'll see. So this day went from complete shite to actually a pretty decent day. Yay!

Over Waiting

In the last 24 hours I have been more pissed off than I have my entire college career. And over a STUPID omni show which should NOT piss me off! But I'm just done. I felt it tonight, I felt it last night, I'm so over omni. I'm over dealing with the stupid freshmen who think they're all that because they know every song everyone is singing, I'm over listening to people who can not sing pretend that they can, I am over being looked down upon by all the people my own age because I am not a theater major, and I am over people not learning their shit and getting everything together to make a kick ass show that I know this show has the potential to be. AND I am over waiting for things to happen in my life. I'm done waiting for guys to notice me and be there for me. I'm just DONE with this year. I am ready to move on to the next phase of my life. And I think everyone in my life is ready to move on too. You know what I say? Fuck 'em. Fuck all those people who make you mad and feel shitty and less about yourself. We are better people than that. And this is why I am completely and totally done.

Movies and Music

I've been watching my movies alphbetically. Yes that makes me a nerd, but it also gives me an insight into my own life and my taste in everything. Part of it also gives me courage to make me a better person and to take chances with things that I wouldn't usually do. It's like the movies and the music in the movies get into my soul and make me feel alive. I'm watching August Rush right now, and this movie is just amazingly touching. The music in it fills me and touches different parts of me everytime. Music has always done this to me, ever since I was a little girl. I get goosebumps, and tears come to my eyes. It's like the music lights me up and makes me become who I truly am meant to be. This is why I always feel amazing during Mass, especially the gloria. All that wonderous sound, making a glorious noise in praise of Him. Every time you sing, you praise Him or It or Her or whatever you believe in. This is why I need to go to L's concert on Friday. I need to hear his praise, his celebration, his song. It is one of the things that can bring people closest together. You can hear a song and it is more intimate than any one physical act can make you. Music touches your soul and that is more than your body. I want him to touch my soul. I need to hear him.

Peer Pressure

Lately, I have been feeling alot of pressure from people. Do this, do that. Wait this long, do it now. I understand that I have really no experience in this whole dating thing, but I am also a big fan of being comfortable when dating. For both parties involved. Don't relationships require a little give and take? Because right now, all I'm doing is giving. I feel no taking in this relationship that I am trying to start here. Why do I feel all the pressure and he is probably sitting around doing absolutely NOTHING, feeling no pressure from me whatsoever. I'm sure he is feeling pressure from everything else in his life, but not from me. So therefore, why should HE make an effort to react to what I'm feeling? It bothers me that I understand all this about him, yet I continue to feel pressure. I'm trying to let it go, and do what my sister told me to, let go and let God. I'm doing what I can, and we'll see how it goes. I did invite him to go out with us tomorrow night, and we'll see what he says back. Maybe I'll just say screw it and move on. Because that is what happens with me all the time.

And the point is.........

So I went to the dentist last week to see what they had to say, and lo and behold, I need a root canal. Now, any other self respecting courgaeous person would have called the endodontist that very next day. However, because I am a big wuss, and because I really really REALLY don't want to get a root canal, here it is almost a week later and I still haven't called them. I really need to get on that. I guess I'll call them today...............UGH.

In other news, I looked very cute yesterday when I went to the Rio after Phonathon for the trainers' meeting. L was supposed to be working, but he was first off, so when I got there, he was already gone. Later I found out he hadn't been there at all. I really hope they don't fire him. How am I supposed to win him over with my charm if I never see him? That is the question of the day. The other question is how to get through the rest of the week without losing my mind or my time. It seems like everybody wants to do so much this week, and really, I don't really have alot of time. It's a busy week and it's only getting busier. Hopefully everything will work out, he won't get fired, and we'll see him on Thursday when we go for drinks.

What a Day

So the meeting went really good. We're switching up the Rio a little bit, making it more fancy to cater to the downtown crowd. So it'll be fun. I got to see L, who I have discovered a newfound liking for. He's so cute and sweet. I can't wait to work with him again. He makes me smile, and he's got a great smile too. It kinda makes me melt mmmmm.

In other news, I have to go to the dentist today. My mouth has been hurting for a while now, and though I'm taking an antibiotic for my sinus infection, it's still a smart idea to go get my mouth all checked out. I just wish it wasn't so FREAKING expensive to go the the dentist. UGH. But hopefully it'll be alright and life will be better and my stupid mouth will stop hurting FOREVER!!! Lovely.