Something strange is happening in Oz

Oct. 14th
So for the past three or four nights, I have been having extremely weird, creepy, bad dreams. Not bad as in wake up screaming bad, but bad as in something bad is always happening to someone in the dreams. The first night, I had a dream that my grandmother was in the hospital. The second night I had a dream that a bunch of people and I were on vaca somewhere tropical and a strange guy was beating the crap out of everyone in our condo with a baseball bat. The third night we were at the restaurant and a new kid stole my apron and my friend Austin got shot by our kitchen manager with a screw. The fourth night, my friend Catilin got sick off of soda, and my roommate's boyfriend told me I needed to read more serious books. Now looking back on these dreams, I realizethat I was really really really stressed for some weird reason.

Today Oct. 21st, 12:34 AM
I haven't had a bad dream in about a week, which is good because they seriously were starting to creep me out. But I have had a crazy two weeks, and it doesn't look like it's going to get any saner. I rode around in pastures in a rhino at 2 o'clock in the morning this weekend, went to bed at 5 and got up at 7 to drive back into Austin to go to work all day. My friend Eric, who works at the rio with me, asked me to lunch, and I had to turn him down, but now we're going this friday to lunch. I can't decide if I actually like him like him or if we're just friends. Sometimes I think it might be more, but other times I just kinda feel like he's that friend all girls have where it's flirty but it means nothing. I think that's what it is, and I think that he's just looking for someone to keep him on the right track. From what I can tell (because he keeps telling me even though I don't really want to know) he's not had a very good past. I don't know. I think that this is how the whole thing with dumb ol' Lindsay started. but I'm not sure, and I'm not looking to jump into one of those so quickly. Besides, I'm pretty sure E has a thing for our gorgeous sweet hostess. Which doesn't surprise me, but still. We'll see how Friday goes.

I talked to a couple of old friends of mine today. One because she seemed like she was going through a hard time and needed someone to chat with about it, and the other because he just needed an opening to rag me about the end of baseball season. Why is that things don't work out the way they should? Why are cogs always thrown in the wheels? I'm not a big fan of the whole messing up of people's lives. If they're meant to be together, why can't the world just let them be together? Why do they have to cut out the middle of people's lives and only give them beginnings and endings? I don't know why this post has taken such a turn. Perhaps I should go to sleep and get rid of this never-ending amount of allergies. Damn them all to hell.

Somethin' New

exciting, and not really different is going on in my life. I'm happy. Which is funny, because a week or two ago, I didn't think I was going to be happy again for a long time. But I am. I'm happy, and I'm content, for the most part. There are a few things I wish I could change, but isn't that just always the way of it? Things are going ok, not perfectly, but ok. School is super busy and annoying. Work is tiring me out, but I love the people. And I'm in Lubbock right now, visiting people. Mainly George, my precious little sister, but my aunt and uncle and cousins too. Went to the Tech game today. Third football game I have ever been to, and I have to say, the most of a nailbiter. Well done, Raiders, well done. Not so well done to my Sox. Mainly Josh Beckett. The poor guy's been havin a tough time lately, especially tonight. Sigh he is my favorite, but I don't know how much longer he's gonna be around, considering the way he was pitching tonight. I mean seriously. 8 runs in 4 1/2 innings? That's a bit much, don't you think? I should go to sleep, because I am exhausted, and we have Mass at 8 tomorrow morning. Fuuuuuun stuff ain't it? I'm excited. Oh and my birthday is in 16 days. Just a BTW :-D. I love October.